You may have seen this bok on line at Amazon. It is my personal story of a 5 year period of sheer hell that almost led me to jump out of a ninth floor dorm window. I had had my heart broken twice, and it was the late 60's. The first medications came out a few years before then. Doctors had little experience and were hesitant to prescribe it.But through the love of my best friend Josh (who I met the morning after I didn't jump) and good psychotherapy, I healed. If you need some inspiration, please take a look at this e-book. There is anold saying, "The map is not the terrain." What is meant is that book learning is important, but if you've been depressed and recovered you know how hard you fought and you realize the lessons your depression has taught you. We tend to be extremely self critical. I trained myself to ask, "So how is that working for you." Self talk is crucial, as are the other coping and self soothing experiences. They are the preparation strategies to go deeply into what troubles you.